Conquering Fear: The Journey to Existential Healing

[Music] but there's a phase after that that if we keep practicing with the medicine becomes an existential healing and this existential healing you cannot do it like just on a same day no this that's going to take over your entire life and that's why this fear is most of the time growing into people because there's this almost unconscious knowledge of what's if I Mak sense and Ashley for yourself um yeah I would say there was a very normal amount of fear you know um I had had previous experience with psychics you know and so it was something I was extremely interested in I always had um extremely profound insights and was always always uh an experience that attitude right and so um I really really interested in in going down and trying it but um I was also at a place and it was a very beautiful place to be for myself where I had nothing to lose you know I was 35 I had living my life um through my wounds and kind of through my pain you know go myself through that way and I I knew that this wasn't this wasn't all life had to offer and so I was at a place where I'll try anything because I want to start really living every I want to start experiencing a beautiful life my life and at least enjoying the gifts I've been given the blessings I've been giving in my life and so um I would say of course I had fear I remember one ceremony where like it was like the first night thought what I this if goes wrong there's nobody here to say you what am I doing you know that kind of idea on on a theological level but like G said I think it it it is more resistance more feiz resistance it was where I thought you shouldn't be doing this but you know I I I kind of pushed through that and um I had nothing to lose I didn't want to keep on living the way I was Ming you and uh what I would like to say also to to those who are listening to us and listen to this podcast that I mean fears is absolutely natural but do we want to live our life out of fear right right we want to try to face it once and for all as long as it takes to be able to gain a little bit of ground on this and this pressure that has on our lives you know